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There's no defense, especially in these grief-stricken times we're living in, against a total upwelling like (parts of) 15 x20.

What I'm saying is maybe I expected those moves--and they blindsided me anyway, and opened up a Grand Canyon of
semi-related/unrelated otherfeels besides. You know that scary kind of grief that feels just on the edge of what you can handle?

Help. I cried way more than I thought I would.

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finchandsparrow.livejournal.com

I think I cried less I would have predicted when I first heard the announcement that season 15 would be the last. But I cried much more than I would have predicted at any point these last few weeks—or months, maybe. (I'm still in the midst of the tears. They'll be coming back.)

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crowroad3.livejournal.com

I hear you! I think I wasn't ready to think about what kind of emotional response I'd have at the time of the s15 announcement (or I thought I would be more detached)...and I am definitely in the same place with not having predicted in the past months how much I'd be affected (no matter the nature of the ending, but of course the nature of it mattered too...) And I was not surprised by what narrative threads they chose to pull or where they ended up, nor am I uncritical about the execution. But: none of that made the feeling less.

Edited Date: 2020-11-21 02:40 am (UTC)

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finchandsparrow.livejournal.com

Same on all points! I'm not often a good crier, since I'm habitually/instinctually repressive rather than expressive when emotions involve me (and in this instance they very much do). But these emotions—including the "semi-related/unrelated otherfeels" you mention—kept hitting in waves yesterday until I fell asleep next to my box of tissues. Lots of feelings. <3